milestones

True milestones in life are typically few and far between. yet there are some that most everyone experiences. Such a time is getting ready to occur in my life... and in the life of my youngest child. Who by the way is not much of a child anymore... Shawn will finish his last day of High School this week on Thursday. Friday will start a new phase in his life and consequently in mine.

I remember my mom telling the story of my Grandmother who had 11 children... my mom being the youngest... that the most difficult day of her life was the morning school started the year after my mom graduated from High School. as a huge part of her life was not over. no longer did she have children to get up and get off to school. Now in all fairness, I have not had to get Shawn up and out the door for school much in the past few years. He was a home school student for several years and the past year he has been living with his father... and only stayed at my house a few times on school days. However, it is still a change of thinking about him and myself.

I find myself having mixed emotions. I am very proud of him and his accomplishments. I am also a bit sad that I no longer have "children to mother" and I am excited about the choices he now has and that I now have. life will be changing in some major ways for both of us... I remember when each of my children had a birthday, they received new privileges as well as new responsibilities. so also with this milestone will he find he has more privileges as well as more responsibilities. not because I grant them, however, still there they are.

I however really like the change in my life... because for me there are now more opportunities yet less responsibilities.... kind of a mind altering thought. I have not yet processed all that means, in fact am waiting to try to process it... instead I am going to just sit and savor that thought. in fact I may need to pray about a way to celebrate that.... pretty cool milestone!