Standing on the Edge?

Have you ever felt like you are standing on the edge of something and just can't quite figure out what it is? Like there is something right there but you just cannot grasp it? you can almost feel it and hear it but just can't see it? Well that is kind of where I find myself tonight. I know that doesn't describe how I am truly feeling, it sounds very confusing even to me when I read it yet I am not able to come up with the words even...

Let me try this... I feel like God has prepared something for me and wants me to be prepared for it... yet I do not know what it is or how to prepare. I feel very unsettled. not fear, or doom. Just unsure of what is around the next corner. I feel that I am in a time of preparation just not sure what I am preparing for. At the same time I feel like God is teaching me great things. I feel like a sponge right now just soaking things up... so much in fact I am pretty sure I am not even processing it all. thankfully some of it is in a format I can go back to and reread it or review it or take it in again.

Take today for example. not only am I in a place at work where I am working on projects are looking at completely new technologies and services that I have never looked at before. I also in my personal life, need to make some decisions that are things I have never considered before that will require lots of research and education so I can make informed decisions. Then add to that the search for a new Church home, my Journey for health where I am learning all kind of new things with regards to nutritional and exercise information. Add to that, in my spiritual life I feel like I am being overwhelmed with some major Spiritual truths. I feel like there have been huge gaps in my education in the area of Spiritual truths... and as a part of this preparation God is pouring out buckets full of new information and experiences into my life daily! It is all a bit overwhelming! I sometimes feel, like today, that I am a beginner in an advance class! Interestingly enough at the same time as I try to process the information that just today has just been poured out into my life, I struggle to even remember all the things I promised myself to meditate on and think about. the reality is I have probably forgotten more than half of the nuggets of truth God poured out on me today alone. I realize that there are things going on that just months ago would have had me totally flipped out. things that I would be working myself up into a frenzy over and yet, as I think about them I just have incredible peace KNOWING that God is in control! It is amazing...

So conclusion to my late night rambling here.... I am celebrating that God continues to transform my life! in the physical, the mental, the emotional and the spiritual!!! I just realized as I was typing that and looking at all I had written above that that is exactly what is happening!!! Praise God He is so AWESOME!!!

Blessings,